Before i begin this post ..

Dear Allah , thank you so much for everything you have given me . You let me experience and let me feel a lot of things this year . And most of it was hardships , emptiness , sadness and all the bad things in the world but who am i to question You when i know only You have the power to all the things around me . Most of them are not what i wanted but im sure they are what i needed the most .

Through out this journey , i wish for an answer . The question is when will i be truly happy ? I screamed and cried for a help but nobody really understand my language . And then i realized i'd rather lock up this feelings to myself because only me i find comfort and only God i find faith .

I've gone through one of the hardest and loneliest journey but nothing about the tough times put me in regret . I believe , the life cycle im going through will always and forever be hard but i know He has one of the best finish line for me at the end of my life .


I dont know what changes things these days . Everything seems to be easily broken .. But i guess i have to be strong in every way in every situation . Because this time im standing alone . No sisters to cry on . No friend to seek help from and no shoulder to hang on . Never thought crying silently would be this painful .


One day I hope i'll find more love , especially in this house .


With love,
QAMARINA MOHSIN