It was kinda sad because i had to swim with scarf on head, BUT ! i'd rather swim with scarf on head now or swim in 'hell' afterlife for sure, hahaha. InshaAllah i'll be back here again one day with my loved ones because it was just too little time and not enough for me.

There's so much i want to share about my trip. While i was in Krabi , me , my sister and mother went out for a night walk while my father and lilbro watching tv at the hotel ( yes, we do have tv too at home ). That night , ibu was so busy looking for her stuffs along the Ao Nang street until me and my sister stumbled to this one creepy store selling creepy stuffs.  " Girls , i have something for you .. its kind of like.. hm, luck maybe?  do you wanna see it ? ", said the old lady who maybe the owner of that creepy store . We were about to leave that store quietly but then the old lady said " THIS ONE ! HEHE " , we turned back to see her holding a small tiny black d*ck keychain . I looked at her in slight confussion and embarrassed " Is this what you called a LUCK ? " , i asked . Then my crazy sister laughed so hard . Luckily , my mom didn't hear that .

That was totally something out of the box that i will never forget , LOL !

Can't believe how time flies , i just realised how close we are to 2015 . I can't wait to share more in my next few posts , in sha Allah .

A ( not so long ) post I'm going to write tonight .
A lot of things to say from the deepest of my heart .

By far , it has been such rough months for me . I used to be quite strong in handling tears but now not anymore .

Dear Faraheen , the eldest girl in family .
I still remember that night , before your solemnization ceremony , we slept together . It was hard at first for me to let you go . On your reception ,  you were the most beautiful bride i've ever seen in my life . You looked exactly like ibu .
I still remember when you told me that i was the cutest baby you've ever seen , now you have a baby who is really looks like me when i was little .
I still remember the day when you first had your heart broken with your first boyfriend , that time you were still in high school .
I still remember your face when you almost paralysed . You were only 22 y/o that time .. I cried myself to sleep almost everyday when you were still in the hospital .
I still remember when we used to share our bedroom together with Kak Tika when we were little . We used to fight most of the time .
I still remember when you were still single , whenever i ran out of nice clothes to go out with my friends , your closet was always a good choice/idea .

We shared so many secrets together .
I am really grateful for having a sister like you .
You're the one who knows me best , kakak .
I'd be lying if i say i'm not crying right now .

Thank you for always being there for me , especially these past few days . I love you kakak .



Dear Jua , the cousin i will go up to , to find a good advice .
We have grown up together .
You 're 3 years older than me but you're actually my niece .
I still remember when we were little i had my first asthma attack , you forced me to go to the clinic after the birthday party . I was intractable and hard headed , i told you i was fine , it was just a little asthma attack . But right after i reached home , my lungs seemed to be tighter than before . Terus teringat awak :(

These past few days , i realise that you've helped a lot  for me to be strong enough to face my problems .

But most of all , you've helped to carry on .

I guess , you know me quite well too . I love you , Jua . Forever , inshaAllah . I miss you .

* currently having a deep conversation in my mind with me , myself and i *

Back in the good old days when i was young , all fiction had the same plot . The beautiful princess is the catch of the town , all men pursue her , some are villains , the handsome prince slays the undeserving , the princess leaps into his arms in gratitude , and they fall in love , get married and .. We all know the prince and princess always go on to live " happily ever after " like on tvs . Cinderella and prince charming ,  prince florian and snow white , prince phillip and princess aurora , prince eric who caught the heart of ariel in the little mermaid . But have you ever notice that those fairytales end with wedding ? They dont even review the honeymoon and surely dont touch on trauma of discovering that this person is nothing like you and disagrees with your opinion on things as basic as doing the chores , choosing the bed sheet colors and etc . 

Hello , im back on my blogging radar .

A few hours after the SPM results came out i had an asthma attack when i was on my way back home with my mother . I was pale and cold like an ice cube . I was so lucky to get a short stay for a week in the Gleneagles Hospital due to blood clot in lungs and infection in blood . It was lovely to be there . To have people around you , cheking you and caring about you . The nurses kept checking on me if i was okay or not . I was also administered a drip . 

Hello and Assalammualaykum my dear readers (oh what ? wait ? do i have a readers ? lol ) . Here we are again i've been trying to blog but there's so my things to be done yet so little time . First of all i would like to say thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes on Instagram , Twitter , Whatsapp and Wechat . And also   thanks to my girlfriend ( Elly , fifa and rozi ) whom surprised me on my birthday at exactly 12 o'clock . I was speechless when they surprised me with two slices of cakes and candles on it , a bag of (happiness i shall say) Furby and monkey . Honestly , i didnt expect that they'll do the same like last year .

That was a night to remember :)

The first month of the year always be my favorite time because it feels so fresh like a blank or a new sketch book . 2013 has been full of tears and laughters , i hope 2014 will packed of laughters and happiness .

p/s; I'll post my new skin routine on Beauty&Tips .

Two teenagers . They're having their late lunch at 'the apartment' . She's eating an ice cream and laughing at some joke he's making as he puffs on his cigarette while looking those people passing by and making silly faces . 

Hi , assalammualaykum . Finally i got the chance to sit down and type . So basically people know that i just came back from a short vacay with my friends ( afiefa affandy , atira redzuan , rozi farrina , afrina adnan , fiqa nosri , najihah filzah and sofea nazmee ) because i keep on posting our pictures in Langkawi . And now im missing the environment , the smell of the sea , the people and and good food over there . I was hooked from the moment i arrived i fell in love with Langkawi . We stayed for 3 amazing days . We went boating , walking by the beach and generally had fun . I had the most wondeful time visited Lake of pregnant Maiden , island hoping in Beras Basah and not to forget Langkawi Skybridge .

I havent had good nights rest ever since early of this month and its not good for my health . I drink 'hot milk' to fall asleep but i guess it doesnt work anymore . Im definitely a night owl but the other way round because i dont sleep during the day . Sleep and me just cant seem to find one another and unfortunately my sleeping pattern is back to its old way  . I've always had the problem since i was in form 5 . Its actually my thoughts that are keeping me up and preventing me from sleeping . Everything just seems to creep into my mind everytime my head hits the pillow . It takes me hours to fall asleep and usually by the time i do its already time to get up for subuh . The thoughts just made things worse and its painful . I really miss sleeping through the nights and woke up in the middle of the night to a cute text . Haha , i dont know why am i saying all this but i really miss it . 

" Dear you my beloved future hubby, who I can’t mention your name now.

Because I've been through it before 

A few people asked me " who's qamarina golding henderson ? " , hahaha subhanAllah . To those who's still havent knw about it , its a fake acc hahahaha . My name is nur qamarina mohd mohsin abd wahid not golding henderson . Yes , I had 2 blogs before this and its ohheyitsqamarina.blogspot.com & justasimplelifexoxo.blogspot.com , Im pure malaysian not belanda . I dont have a ' mat salleh' look at all . She/he stole my picture from myspace and copied the same posts that i've posted on ohheyitsqamarina.blogspot.com but with different introduction/information . Please kindly block or spam that acc . I dont know who made that blog . Thanks .