It was kinda sad because i had to swim with scarf on head, BUT ! i'd rather swim with scarf on head now or swim in 'hell' afterlife for sure, hahaha. InshaAllah i'll be back here again one day with my loved ones because it was just too little time and not enough for me.

There's so much i want to share about my trip. While i was in Krabi , me , my sister and mother went out for a night walk while my father and lilbro watching tv at the hotel ( yes, we do have tv too at home ). That night , ibu was so busy looking for her stuffs along the Ao Nang street until me and my sister stumbled to this one creepy store selling creepy stuffs.  " Girls , i have something for you .. its kind of like.. hm, luck maybe?  do you wanna see it ? ", said the old lady who maybe the owner of that creepy store . We were about to leave that store quietly but then the old lady said " THIS ONE ! HEHE " , we turned back to see her holding a small tiny black d*ck keychain . I looked at her in slight confussion and embarrassed " Is this what you called a LUCK ? " , i asked . Then my crazy sister laughed so hard . Luckily , my mom didn't hear that .

That was totally something out of the box that i will never forget , LOL !

Can't believe how time flies , i just realised how close we are to 2015 . I can't wait to share more in my next few posts , in sha Allah .

A ( not so long ) post I'm going to write tonight .
A lot of things to say from the deepest of my heart .

By far , it has been such rough months for me . I used to be quite strong in handling tears but now not anymore .

Dear Faraheen , the eldest girl in family .
I still remember that night , before your solemnization ceremony , we slept together . It was hard at first for me to let you go . On your reception ,  you were the most beautiful bride i've ever seen in my life . You looked exactly like ibu .
I still remember when you told me that i was the cutest baby you've ever seen , now you have a baby who is really looks like me when i was little .
I still remember the day when you first had your heart broken with your first boyfriend , that time you were still in high school .
I still remember your face when you almost paralysed . You were only 22 y/o that time .. I cried myself to sleep almost everyday when you were still in the hospital .
I still remember when we used to share our bedroom together with Kak Tika when we were little . We used to fight most of the time .
I still remember when you were still single , whenever i ran out of nice clothes to go out with my friends , your closet was always a good choice/idea .

We shared so many secrets together .
I am really grateful for having a sister like you .
You're the one who knows me best , kakak .
I'd be lying if i say i'm not crying right now .

Thank you for always being there for me , especially these past few days . I love you kakak .



Dear Jua , the cousin i will go up to , to find a good advice .
We have grown up together .
You 're 3 years older than me but you're actually my niece .
I still remember when we were little i had my first asthma attack , you forced me to go to the clinic after the birthday party . I was intractable and hard headed , i told you i was fine , it was just a little asthma attack . But right after i reached home , my lungs seemed to be tighter than before . Terus teringat awak :(

These past few days , i realise that you've helped a lot  for me to be strong enough to face my problems .

But most of all , you've helped to carry on .

I guess , you know me quite well too . I love you , Jua . Forever , inshaAllah . I miss you .

* currently having a deep conversation in my mind with me , myself and i *