So , it's clearly 0105 and i'm still up . And i don't know why . Maybe just another sleepless night or just another one lonely night . I'm not sure .

Somehow i feel like deactivating my instagram , twitter and facebook . Because i spent too much time on social network which can be actually spent more effectively . Plus , i hate seeing one of my friends completely change because of someone else . Why am i saying all this ? I guess i've been thinking about it a lot lately .

I told my mom about this . What she said made an impact on me for some reasons . I guess , i need to be more bitchy . Because the nicer you are , the easier you get hurt .

But whatsoever , my life is getting better now . 

Peace be upon you .

Ramadhan is so close . I can smell it . I can feel it . I can see it . But sadly , I haven't completed my puasa ganti yet . This is so stressing . Hm .

Well , there's another six more months to go . I can't believe its already the end of june . Incredible , how time goes by so fast . My SPM trial(s) is just around the corner . And i haven't prepared anything . Sounds like a bawse huh ? Wtv . I feel like committing suicide . *crickets*

This month has gone by pretty fast . My sister just got married and she's gone to her new place . The home which used to be so boisterous suddenly seems quiet after i return home from school . Hope she's happy with her new life as a wife .

I wonder how it feels to be a wife . I'm pretty sure ten years from now i'll be in my own house with my beloved husband and my first baby . Hahaha , omg my imagination is out of control . But to be honest , it keeps lingering in my mind a lot . I just can't wait to be a wife and a mother to beautiful babies . Hehe


Peace be upon you .

* ps: this is not a real belly . I put my shawls under my shirt to make myself look pregnant .

I guess i'm still waiting for a miracle to happen .

I re-published back all my old post because i miss last year . I miss alot of people who used to close with me  but i dont want to turn back time because im thankful for what i have in my life now .

Dear you , I'm not gonna name you but i just wanna let you know that i miss you . i miss us . and i miss our friendship . You were the best girlfriend that i ever had . You listened to my problems . When i got my heartbroken , you always put things into perspective . I appreciate what you have done . Thank you , my girl friend .