Just been away in Bankok for almost a week and it was pretty fun . I fell in love with their street foods and markets .. And their culture too . The last time i went Thailand was about few years back . Waaw , how time flies .

I wish i could cry until there's no more pain left inside 

Love , the little word is special

Why do people always lie ? Its the worst thing to do especially when it comes to someone you love or someone who loves you . It wont be good . I hate being lied to and i would rather hurt with the truth than comfort with a lie . I can handle the truth even it may hurt sometimes . Yup .

After all the experiences that i've had in my life i've only learned to accept everyone for what they are not what they look like or what colour skin they have or what has happened to them in  the past because i dont like being judged so i dont judge others . No matter who you are , no matter what mistakes you've made , no matter what you've been through , no matter what race/culture/religion .  i will never judge you and thats a promise i wanna live by . 

1) im a hard person to love but when i love , i love really hard .

I just reset everything on my blog . Sorry .

When dark clouds come your way ,

I love sketching .

Im stuck in this black hole of sadness that seems to be never ending . No one will never understand how truly awful it is unless they've been through it . Life is beautiful but bitter sometimes .

Challenge accepted 

You came so suddenly when i was lonely ,You woke me up from my sorrow world , Your loving smile that brings me back to life ,Now there's you , there's no sadness . For there is always happiness . Loneliness was just a fairly tale to me since the day i set my eyes on you ,You brought this world of joy to me since the day i knew you ,Do stay sweet and charming always .

The candle of my life ,

Last few days i spent 3 hours reading looking for alaska in bed before doing anything else . I usually wake up at 7 and do the house-cores after breakfast . But on that day i decided to stay in bed in my baju tidur till its time to study . Pemalaskan ? Haih .

So yesterday , my dad bought S3 for my little brother . He's only 12 and already have S3 ? While im here , sitting on my bed with full of books and typing on my blog using my stupid iphone 4 . When i was his age all i have was Sony Ericsson .

After we got back home , i asked my dad " pa , can i have iphone 5s ? " i said in one breath . I sighed and added cautiously , " it costs 2k+ " . I was expecting my dad akan cakap " ok " or something . But nothing happened . It was really silent . You could here the sounds of nature out side the house , like grasshoppers and birds .. Or some dogs barking far away . So i shall just keep on dreaming .

Okay . Now . I don't even know where to begin . So it's already the fifth day of syawal and i'm sure all of you had fun . To all SPM candidates i wish you all the best for trial next week . And of course to myself too , hahaha .

I've been hearing about " the secret of starbucks " a couple of months ago . So when my parents and i were deciding to go out for a lunch just now , i jumped at the opportunity to finally try it . So i ordered " vanilla bean caramel with raspberry syrup " . And the guy at the counter said , " dia tak ada dalam menu so kena extra charge " . Hm , tak ada la extra mana . It's only RM 13.90 not so expensive . It tastes good as it looks . Loving life today . Eid mubarak to all muslims . Enjoy your rayaa :)

I met you a few years ago ,
I can't remember the date or what you wore ,
Or what the weather was like ,
I only remember the time when you stared at me .

When the first time i met you ,
I had feelings for you ,
The first time i made my attempt to talk ,
I felt myself nervous to speak ,
I always said to myself ,
That one day i would tell all by myself ,
What i had all in my heart .

As days linger by ,
My heart longs for you even more ,
Forever willing to try ,
To have you by my side .

If only you knew how many times i've mentioned your name in my prayers .

Thank you papa and ibu 😊

You're someone nice to know and one whom i like and care a lot . Soon this special day of yours i want you know that i'm glad to have you as my girlfriend . And may you find happiness and success in the years ahead . I love you sayang ! -qamarina

I'll keep on waiting for someone to come a long to prove to me i can actually be good enough for someone and be happy . Never give up when it comes to love because nothing in life comes easy . Innallaha ma'ana .

Assalammualaikum marhaban . Ismee Qamarina Mohsin . Motasharedafatun bemaa refatek . Asif , lughatu al arabic laisat kamaa yajeeb . Hahaha , ok i gotta stop this . Just a few days left to ramadan . Cant wait . My june was horrible . I had a bad low blood pressure and high fever .

So , it's clearly 0105 and i'm still up . And i don't know why . Maybe just another sleepless night or just another one lonely night . I'm not sure .

Somehow i feel like deactivating my instagram , twitter and facebook . Because i spent too much time on social network which can be actually spent more effectively . Plus , i hate seeing one of my friends completely change because of someone else . Why am i saying all this ? I guess i've been thinking about it a lot lately .

I told my mom about this . What she said made an impact on me for some reasons . I guess , i need to be more bitchy . Because the nicer you are , the easier you get hurt .

But whatsoever , my life is getting better now . 

Peace be upon you .

Ramadhan is so close . I can smell it . I can feel it . I can see it . But sadly , I haven't completed my puasa ganti yet . This is so stressing . Hm .

Well , there's another six more months to go . I can't believe its already the end of june . Incredible , how time goes by so fast . My SPM trial(s) is just around the corner . And i haven't prepared anything . Sounds like a bawse huh ? Wtv . I feel like committing suicide . *crickets*

This month has gone by pretty fast . My sister just got married and she's gone to her new place . The home which used to be so boisterous suddenly seems quiet after i return home from school . Hope she's happy with her new life as a wife .

I wonder how it feels to be a wife . I'm pretty sure ten years from now i'll be in my own house with my beloved husband and my first baby . Hahaha , omg my imagination is out of control . But to be honest , it keeps lingering in my mind a lot . I just can't wait to be a wife and a mother to beautiful babies . Hehe


Peace be upon you .

* ps: this is not a real belly . I put my shawls under my shirt to make myself look pregnant .

I guess i'm still waiting for a miracle to happen .

I re-published back all my old post because i miss last year . I miss alot of people who used to close with me  but i dont want to turn back time because im thankful for what i have in my life now .

Dear you , I'm not gonna name you but i just wanna let you know that i miss you . i miss us . and i miss our friendship . You were the best girlfriend that i ever had . You listened to my problems . When i got my heartbroken , you always put things into perspective . I appreciate what you have done . Thank you , my girl friend .

Omg , i found this . Hahahahahaha .

*this is an old picture of me*

I started wearing hijab since i came back from Makkah . I still remember the first time i set my eyes on the kaaba . I know the decision to wear hijab is not an easy one to make . But then , i said to myself  " be the type of person that you want to met <3 " . Alhamdulillah , It's been 3 months now since i decided to start wearing hijab .

Ingatkan dah pakai hijab " No more freelance job " . But last week , agency call that i dapat advertisement job for colgate . Rezeki is everywhere . Alhamdulillah , syukur for the job . Mulakan hari anda dengan colgate ok ? :p

My past made me what i am right now . Only God knows how bad i was back then . I never thought that the hijab was permanent for me . I was never forced to wear hijab . My parents just had always encouraged it . Every morning before i get ready for school , i put on my hijab . Looked at my reflection in the mirror and smiled , " Thank God i was born Muslim " .

I may be not the prettiest girl after wearing a hijab . But i'm sure , i have my own values and self respect . Asalkan cantik di mata Allah . Every single day i become more grateful about being a hijabi. I've been more Muslim and kinder . At the same time , i feel very safe and the spiritual benefits of hijab outweigh any misgivings . I believe that the decision to wear hijab was the best choice i ever made .

You should also know that when i was writing this story i had tears in my eyes thinking about how lucky i am .

I hope my future husband will have enough knowledge of  Islam . So that he can be the Imam of the house . InshaAllah . Amin .

Peace be upon you .

Hi , it's already 1 am and im still wide awake . The last time i wrote a blog was a few months ago . You know what ? i just came back from Makkah . A present from papa and ibu . Alhamdulillah , finally dapat jumpa all my long lost cousins , uncles , aunties and granny ( my dad's side ) . I went to Makkah on 23rd Feb . That was my first Umrah . and i also celebrated my birthday there . And i would like to thank to all my friends for the surprse .

Masjid Al- Nabawi , Madinah

Nenek and her daughter in law's relatives

Papa

Its me , in Madinah . infront of my hotel :)

Life is just getting better day by day since you left and i've learned alot of things . so glad to have a very understanding family and friends eventhough deep inside its still hurt . you used to be a part of my life but now not anymore because you're now in my past .



hoping that i'll never see you again .

We have known each other since form one . They were always there to be my shoulder to cry on . We could talk for hours about anything . When i first saw them i thought they were arrogant and bitchy but i was wrong . After all that we've been through we never thought of giving up on each other .

Only God knows how much i love my girlfriends .

Hello , happy new year everyone ! It has been awhile since i last wrote a blog . As you know , im in my senior year of highschool now . It seems like yesterday when i was just a little freshman in , SMK Taman Melawati . Standing in front of 1bakti like a whimpy kid . Knowing no one except of my friend , Azzara Azzam . But everything happened just too fast that i cant believe that im in form 5 this year . Like omg , i am now a senior ?! Hahaha . Looking back as a senior , i guess i had changed a lot . Of course . My body got a lil bit slimmer . Dont you think so ? Hahaha . And my hairstyle really changed alot . What a great years in highschool . I had a lot of laughter , tears , ups and downs , sleepovers and fights . There are lots of memories that will always remembered .



2nd jan 2013 . First day of senior year . First day of the last highschool career .

Our classroom is nice . Its like a typical rooms of every science class . It makes me get little more excited for SPM .


*this is my first time blogging using my phone*